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Wow I’m old

I’ve been really loving PARTYNEXTDOOR lately – his music is a nice break from the usual Dirty South Hip Hop I listen to. I love the confidence he exudes in the music….and I love love love that he’s from the Greater Toronto Area.

Plus he’s kinda cute, so excuse me while I have a few daydreams about this man:

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Except……………….he’s 20!?

That would be a new low for me – and I thought Manchild was bad!

Daydream = dead. Oh well.

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I forgot one of the most important things!

Random, but whatever!

I forgot to mention that I managed to negotiate a Macbook Air for work use as part of the deal – this, out of everything, was probably the biggest deal breaker for me – I can’t stand using Windows (personal preference) and the Air makes it easy for me to tote the laptop home to work from home when needed (which will probably be often)!

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New year!

Obviously I’m a little behind. With the holidays and getting ready for Jamaica things have been kinda crazy in my life.

While I’m not one to make resolutions, I have been thinking about some things I want to accomplish this year:

The first is I need to get my financial life in order. After the separation there were unexpected bills that put me in debt – that I am still paying off, even as of last week! I want to pay off the little bit of debt I have and start saving. By the end of the year I want to be in a place where I can breathe comfortably and sleep well at night. This is my biggest goal.

I want to finalize the divorce. I want that part of my life over and done with.

I want to continue to nurture and grow the new relationships I have made since the separation  – I think this is important given the above. If I am to really start over and have that part of my life closed, I unfortunately need to let go of some people, especially those with close ties to my ex.

I want to start preparing my body for a child. I need to get off one of the medications I’m on, and start taking folic acid every day. This seems so easy, but I haven’t been able to do it consistently yet!

As far as where A and I will end up, that’s not something I can speculate on. I am hopeful. I’ve also learned though that people and life can throw you curveballs! I’m planning for the future but keeping my eyes open.

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Completely stupid and unnecessary

But still fun!

I found a website called MorphThing and had some fun playing around with what a potential baby would look like between myself and A:

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Not too bad!

I also tried it with Mr. Dreads:

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Meh, I’ve seen better looking kids.

(I hope he reads this!)

Is it weird that I already have a name picked out for a little girl? Not telling though, family and friends keep taking all the baby names I had picked out: Emma, Stella, Sophia….

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Dead Tired

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Quite literally I am dead tired. A has been staying over every night this week, and will continue to until Sunday night. I am getting in as much time with him as possible before he leaves, but this means that I am also getting up at 4am to drive him back to his place to get ready for work, then going back home to sleep for another hour before I have to get up again. Even multiple doses of coffee are not doing enough this morning to keep me awake and focused, and I think today will be a write-off work-wise. I would love nothing more than to head home for a couple hours and nap!

I’ve decided to spend the time apart being productive rather than moping around, and have found a dance studio close by that has drop-in classes. I’m super excited to start dancing again – it’s fun and I always feel amazing after – not just because of the endorphins from the workout but I have better body image when I dance consistently, and who doesn’t want to just naturally feel better about themselves?